watching over his brother

My two boys shared the job of mowing the lawn every week. Alternating the small front yard with the large backyard. They were very, very close to each other. After my younger son died the job of mowing the front and the back yard was done solely by my older son.

One day I was sitting on the front steps while my son was mowing the front lawn. I was talking in my mind to my other son who passed on. I was asking him if he was with his brother watching over him. I told him that I was going to get my camera and that he could show me that he watched over his brother and I would take his photo. I have 12 photos of my son mowing the lawn with his little brothers orb following him around the yard. Here are some. I am very grateful to my younger son for showing us he is around for his older brother. He stayed right next to him the entire time he mowed the lawn. My older son has autism and special needs.

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love connection

The last few weeks have been depressing and horrible. I was not able to meditate or go to my yoga class as much as I wanted and needed to go. I have been trying to find more time for myself, which makes a huge difference in my mindset. Work has been keeping me way to busy. I think about my son every day all the time. I miss him so much.

I did have a wonderful experience the other day while working. I was in a clients basement when it happened. I had to meet with a women who I knew slightly, but was not close to. When I arrived at her home the first thing she said was how sorry she was for the loss of my son. She had heard about his passing, but never had the chance to tell me in person. So here I am at her house, starting to tear up and get emotional. To stay strong and not break down and cry, I decided I would talk a little about my son. I discussed a few of the many wonderful qualities of his personality. Told her about the huge void that we now have in our family, how much we all miss him and loved him. She shared a sweet story about what she had heard about him from her daughter and her friends. I Thanked her for her kind words and then got to work. He was on my mind the whole time.

I had to go in the basment and take photos. As I am taking photographs I see his spirit and others flying past my camera lens. He was showing up in some of the pictures that I had to take for my client, so I had to take them twice sometimes three times to get a clear photo without spirit.


He continued to be present. I took a short video while I was in her basement to document him being there for me. I have NO doubt in my heart at all that when I am thinking about him in a loving way he knows it and wants me to know that he is with me. The connection through love will never die

a sign for Dad

It has been almost ten months since my son's passing. It is still daily struggle to survive. I secretly look forward to the end of the day from the moment I wake up. The short time I spend seeing the spirit light of my child brings me slight comfort. Just enough to keep me going one day at a time at this point. From the beginning of this journey I knew I would do certain things alone. My husband, the love of my life, and soul mate does not want to see his son in this form (spirit and light) It is too painful and I respect his wishes. So taking the photos and video are strictly my personal thing. I am receptive to signs from my son and I get them often. My husband says he does not.

One night something amazing happened he could not deny. He got home from work at 2:00 am from his job as a detective sergeant. I heard him come into the house, walk up the stairs, stop and talk to our 17 year old daughter (telling her to close the light, that it was time to go to sleep) He changed out of his suit, shut the light and got into bed. I am a super light sleeper so I was awake. He got under the covers next to me and had just gotten settled. I felt someone over me - softly stroking my arm and whispering in my ear "ma, ma" Thinking it was my daughter who had come into my room I quickly sat up and spoke her name out loud. My husband sat up quickly thinking something was wrong. Both of us were wide awake sitting up in bed. What we saw was real with out a shadow of a doubt. There was a beautiful warm white light orb hovering over the foot of the bed. It rose to the ceiling and met up with another orb of light. The two of them traveled together in synchronicity moving back and forth along the ceiling from one side of the room to the other. Dipping and diving, they moved slowly back and forth for about a minute. They both lowered to the floor and exited through an exterior wall. My husband said he could NOT deny what he just saw. We both new exactly what we experienced.

here are spirit light orbs outside my sons bedroom window

only a calm pool can perfectly reflect the heavens above it

one day at a time

My loss is devastating beyond comprehension , so much so that I have to live my life literally one day at a time. The first thing I do when I wake up is ask my higher power to give me the strength, guidance and perseverance to get through this ONE DAY. I let go of my control and hand it over.

it happens - my day is guided remarkably what I need is what I receive
I am always thankful and grateful at the days end. I made it through another day.
There are signs everyday that I am not doing this alone. The more I am open to receiving them, the more they come, the more they come, the more it helps my souls journey to healing.

these photos were shot from the window in my sons's room, looking out into my backyard. Taken about three months after his death. This was my first experience with light orbs and I did not know it at the time what this was going to eventually lead too.

no surprise

I like to spend quiet time in my son's old bedroom. It is now my mediation room. Most of his things have been packed and put away. It is too painful to see his belongings. I say that he died at the age for me to always remember him as being perfect. The time in his life that was just on the threshold of maturing into a young man. He was 14 years old. He still loved having me tuck him in and give him a kiss goodnight. He did not get embarrassed by his parents in public places. He enjoyed spending time with us. I could go on and on about how amazing, kind, thoughtful, compassionate , and loving he was and how blessed we were to have him.

It was no surprise to me that when I decided to take a video in his room that he would be there for me.

observations of the soul

The more my mind opened and the fear dissolved, the more profound my experiences became. I started to become aware of certain things involving the presence of spirit.

This is what I observed
1.The spirits arrive in soul groups/families
2.They seem to travel together in an orb shaped light
3.They rarely appear in emotions of sadness and despair
4.If I was in a joyful or celebratory state it would attract hundreds of spirit and they would stay for a longer time
5.I noticed each emanates unique, distinguishing subtle shades of colored light
6.The shades are white, blue, orange, pink and yellow - with variations of brightness
7.The actual size of each individual spirit is a very tiny sparkle of light that can be seen with the human eye
8.They can move about us undetected, because they are extremely fast and small
9.They can manifest into larger forms of light at times
10.They move in synchronicity
11.They listen to thoughts and respond excitedly when they are loving thoughts
12.There presence seems to be around us when we need them the most
I have asked my son to appear with family members during occasions and he always does. I have also asked his help by doing a certain thing - for example, stay with a particular person or go to a certain place. I take the photo or video and there he is - exactly as I asked.

As I feel more comfortable sharing I will post additional photos and videos.

Just a reminder that these are my own thoughts an observations. I am basing my opinion on what I see, experience and document. For now these photos show how the spirit travels in synchronicity and the large light orbs that they seem to emerge from.

skepticism

I expedited skepticism from my husband. I won't go into detail about our relationship. We are similar in many things and very different in others. I consider him my soul mate and I am very much in love with him. We have grown closer through the process of grieving our son's death. When it comes to spirituality - we are on two different pages. I have my beliefs and my husband prefers that I don't preach to him about how I feel. At this moment in time he is shut down and feels like his son was taken. He is hurting deeply and this trauma has put a separation between himself and God. I can only do so much, he is a grown man and I cannot force him to do or believe in something. He says that he is glad for me that the photos can bring some comfort. He prefers that I don't talk to him about my experiences or show him the pictures. For him it enforces the painful realization that his son is no longer here physically. After I took the photograph of our son's lighted spirit I was surprised, grateful, and to be honest it did make me feel a little better knowing that he is still with us - just not in flesh. I did share the first photos I took with my husband, who was predictably skeptical. This only made my desire stronger to "get proof" and my son was more then willing to help.

PHOTOS TAKEN IN THE KITCHEN DURING A LIGHT MOMENT TALKING WITH MY DAUGHTER ABOUT HER BROTHER HAVING A PARTY IN HEAVEN