love connection

The last few weeks have been depressing and horrible. I was not able to meditate or go to my yoga class as much as I wanted and needed to go. I have been trying to find more time for myself, which makes a huge difference in my mindset. Work has been keeping me way to busy. I think about my son every day all the time. I miss him so much.

I did have a wonderful experience the other day while working. I was in a clients basement when it happened. I had to meet with a women who I knew slightly, but was not close to. When I arrived at her home the first thing she said was how sorry she was for the loss of my son. She had heard about his passing, but never had the chance to tell me in person. So here I am at her house, starting to tear up and get emotional. To stay strong and not break down and cry, I decided I would talk a little about my son. I discussed a few of the many wonderful qualities of his personality. Told her about the huge void that we now have in our family, how much we all miss him and loved him. She shared a sweet story about what she had heard about him from her daughter and her friends. I Thanked her for her kind words and then got to work. He was on my mind the whole time.

I had to go in the basment and take photos. As I am taking photographs I see his spirit and others flying past my camera lens. He was showing up in some of the pictures that I had to take for my client, so I had to take them twice sometimes three times to get a clear photo without spirit.


He continued to be present. I took a short video while I was in her basement to document him being there for me. I have NO doubt in my heart at all that when I am thinking about him in a loving way he knows it and wants me to know that he is with me. The connection through love will never die

a sign for Dad

It has been almost ten months since my son's passing. It is still daily struggle to survive. I secretly look forward to the end of the day from the moment I wake up. The short time I spend seeing the spirit light of my child brings me slight comfort. Just enough to keep me going one day at a time at this point. From the beginning of this journey I knew I would do certain things alone. My husband, the love of my life, and soul mate does not want to see his son in this form (spirit and light) It is too painful and I respect his wishes. So taking the photos and video are strictly my personal thing. I am receptive to signs from my son and I get them often. My husband says he does not.

One night something amazing happened he could not deny. He got home from work at 2:00 am from his job as a detective sergeant. I heard him come into the house, walk up the stairs, stop and talk to our 17 year old daughter (telling her to close the light, that it was time to go to sleep) He changed out of his suit, shut the light and got into bed. I am a super light sleeper so I was awake. He got under the covers next to me and had just gotten settled. I felt someone over me - softly stroking my arm and whispering in my ear "ma, ma" Thinking it was my daughter who had come into my room I quickly sat up and spoke her name out loud. My husband sat up quickly thinking something was wrong. Both of us were wide awake sitting up in bed. What we saw was real with out a shadow of a doubt. There was a beautiful warm white light orb hovering over the foot of the bed. It rose to the ceiling and met up with another orb of light. The two of them traveled together in synchronicity moving back and forth along the ceiling from one side of the room to the other. Dipping and diving, they moved slowly back and forth for about a minute. They both lowered to the floor and exited through an exterior wall. My husband said he could NOT deny what he just saw. We both new exactly what we experienced.

here are spirit light orbs outside my sons bedroom window

only a calm pool can perfectly reflect the heavens above it